I’ve been facing mountain this week spiritually. Really overwhelming mountains; the store where I have worked for ten years is closing the location that I’ve run, my closest and dearest friend (also a scribe of not little skill) is facing something soul-shattering in her family, and yesterday I found out that my car needs repairs which will cost between $2,500-$2,7000. It is so hard to keep reminding myself that Yahweh is good when circumstances call Him a liar and it is so quiet that I can hear my own heart thumping against my ribs. Where are you Yahweh? Can’t you see how badly I am hurting? Don’t you know that your daughter is hurting, hurting, hurting? That things are coming so quickly she is punch drunk? I am drowning in my fears, I am undone before my enemies, and I can not go on.
If you’re feeling the same as I am today, let me share the nugget that I found (He showed me of course) it’s in Isaiah 40:25-26 and I am using the ESV translation.
To whom then will you compare me,
that I should be like him? says the Holy One.
Lift up your eyes on high and see:
who created these?
He who brings out their host by number,
calling them all by name,
by the greatness of his might,
and because he is strong in power
not one is missing.
He holds the stars in place, and says to the suns “Stay” and they do. He also dwells physically with me today, tomorrow, and the day after. Since He is holding the stars in place, I am trusting Him to set my life in the right places, and provide for me. Won’t you join me? Wait with me in eager expectation to see Him move on your behalf, as I wait for Him to move on mine.